Somehow I have never really understood the theory of having a boyfriend. I mean, what is the need? I know the pro-relationship people would say that one is made to feel special, is occasionally showered with gifts, looks forward to meeting their loved one daily, et al. I would be lying if I say that I have never felt like having a boyfriend. It’s just that I think too much about the “consequences” of being in a relationship. I am basically too much of an independent person and I know the same will be curtailed with the entry of a boy. My friends mean a lot to me. I already don’t get enough time to spend with them. It would further reduce if I get into a relationship.
Suddenly, you’re answerable to that person, you need to put his interests before yours and there are so many other things that you need to do to keep him happy. You become irritable. I think mood-swings are at their peak when people are dating. It’s worse than PMS!!!
Why, I ask? Why should I do something like that for someone else? Am I being selfish by harbouring such feelings? I have seen couples fight like cats and dogs and many a times over the silliest and pettiest matters. It’s actually quite disheartening you know. You never know what would spark off a fight. And the worst is, I just can’t do anything about it. So many of my friends are couples and whenever they invite me for lunch or dinner or just a cup of coffee, I always feel a little weird. Even the smallest of their gestures like holding hands or hugging makes me feel left out. Absurd, right? Well, seriously, I can’t help it. I know I can always avoid going out with them. But I only seem to get along well with couples! Sometimes I avoid it, but then I have to oblige at other times. And the couples are completely oblivious to my feelings… I don’t think I can blame them.
It is at these times when I feel the need for a boyfriend. Mind you, it’s only when I’m with my couple friends. Else I’m completely at bliss being single! It’s so much better, especially for a person like me who guards her independence fiercely. I live life by my own rules and don’t really want to change the way I live for another person. Perhaps I’m selfish, perhaps I’m afraid of commitment, I don’t know… but I AM enjoying life big time and it’s predominantly because I’m single…Trust me!